Purge free for about 2 years, but I feel the anxiety rising… I’ve been binging lately, and I feel my mind slipping into insanity once again, all I can feel is anger and hatred towards myself. I want to hurt, I want to feel pain, I need to be punished, I need to purge. I can’t stand to be inside my own mind right now. I have people all around me but I have never felt so alone.
I’m in a room feeling all alone, and all I want to do is scream my lungs out until this pain goes away.
It’s 3 am and I do not feel like studying for tomorrows exam. *sigh* Looks like my grade might slip. Meh.
Two more finals to go and one more project to turn in… I’m at my whits end… gahhh..